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i forgot that i havent posted anything this year and it's already half-way thru february. but i guess it's never too late to wish you happy new year!


so life update (also the main reason why i havent been writing) is that i'm currently working now (eeeeeks adulting). considering that this is my first ever proper job, i think i'm getting the hang of it and adjusting pretty well. i've once said that i will never work with kids because growing up, i never see myself as someone who's lovey-dovey and caring towards kids. if you're the youngest child in your family, i think you can understand what i'm saying. 

but yes, life works in a very funny way. here i am, working with kids. but not any typical kids- i'm working as a shadow aide teacher where i need to take care of one autistic kid and one kid who has GDD. i can still remember feeling suuuuper tired on my first day of working bcs i didn't know what to expect from the kids but alhamdulillah, i'm getting better day by day. 

also i've told my close friends about this sooo many times but i'm just very very grateful that i've been given the opportunity to work at the school. i'm thankful for my kind and supportive colleagues who'd always help me and offer me one whenever they see me (also for tolerating my lameness) ((jk they didn't have choice)). but really, the environment is so different from the ones i heard from my friends who are also working. idk, eventho it only has been one month + since i started working, but i truly love working there. 

and surprise surprise, i've already attached with everyone especially the kidsssss ahh my heart melts everytime they come and hug me 😭

anyways, i know this year would be different than the previous ones as i'm entering a whole new chapter in life; adulting. i don't know what the future holds but i'm only hoping that i could all go through it easily and no longer lose a part of me again. 

to a better future, hopefully