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had a breakdown on the last day of 2017 so you can pretty much tell that i didnt start my new year happily. i could still remember the pain in my chest every time i try to remember what happened. but i met a lot of my friends so thats good. i feel really bad for saying this but somehow meeting them was the only way to distract myself. and i opened up to some too. not too sure what to feel about that tho, but i guess it's good enough that i had the courage to do so? *pats self* also finally went to the beach (after so long) and i felt slightly better after that (but not when i got sunburned lol why is my skin so sensitive) and most of the days were tiring as i didnt get to sleep much at night but oh well whats new lol.
here's to a new journey. i hope this year will bring you more strength, happiness and love. may god bless xx.