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why do people always break their own promises?
due to my past experience(s), i always have trust issues with everyone. i honestly don't trust someone 100% but once i trust them, i really really really do. and when that happens, i will end up getting hurt. trust can be so fragile. especially when they know how hard it is for you to do that, and when they earn your trust, they throw it away just like that. and what saddens me the most is that the people who did all of this, they mean so much to me. and they know it well how much i value trust. i have way too many scars from this. it sucks because you hate them for doing that but yet you still have a soft spot for them. because it's not easy to throw them away, not as easy as how they threw me away.
one can tell you that they'll stay by your side through everything, and yet they chose to leave. one can tell you that they care for you and yet they act like you never existed. one can say that they love you and yet they turned their back on you.
sometimes i feel like i'm the problematic one. because it seems like everyone else doesn't have the same issue. well maybe i am the problematic one after all. maybe i care too much, and i wish i don't.
truth be told, those who are closest to you can be the meanest people. they know your weaknesses and they can use it against you. trust me, having trust issues isn't easy at all. you will keep on doubting and doubting. it sucks because you didn't even ask for it.
oh well, shit happens. always have, always will - it's a hard pill to swallow.
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